Friday, May 27, 2005


I'm home for my sister's high school graduation. I'm having one of those visits that really means the world to me. . .nothing compares to a weekend with family. . .NOTHING.

I will update more later. I have a lot on my mind (what else is new?), but I doubt I'll be posting all of my thoughts. :)

It's easy to forget how we were.
It's the same old things that trap us here.
As a thousand nights go by. . .
~The Album Leaf

Monday, May 23, 2005

Catch Up

Wassup! Here's a rundown of my weekend:

Carmack came into town so he and Weiler and I and some other friends went out Friday night. It was interesting and I felt kinda old. Some of the people I came across that night made me sad for them--don't they know there's so much more to life than hooking up with someone from a bar? But maybe that's rude for me to say. . .I just know that I was annoyed and turned off by some of the comments I heard and actions I witnessed. Ugh.

I also had some interesting conversations with my sis. She was a bit mad at me, I think, concerning my upcoming weekend plans. So I'm going home Friday-Sunday to spend time with her and to hear her play her violin at church. Should be fun! Then on Sunday I'm driving back and heading to the ranch with John, Marcy, Jane, and maybe some others. . .I don't know who's going.

This past Saturday, I played tennis with Jane and the twins in the morning. We were definitely rusty. . .but we'll have plenty of time to get back into shape. :) Dad flew down after that and we went to lunch with Barrett. It was nice. We also looked at a couple of houses--one in particular that Dave from church is holding for me. I think that might be the one I sign for. . .but I'm still on the lookout.

Saturday night I hung out with Weiler and we finished watching Team America. That movie is definitely funny, though I could've done without some of the gross parts. I say that about a lot of movies, though. What can I say--I'm an innocent little girl. ;)

Tonight I'm having coffee with Becky, which of course will be nice. I've missed her. :)

And. . .that's about it. Sounds kinda unevenful, but it was actually quite fun.

Catch ya later!

You fearful saints,
fresh courage take;
the clouds you so much dread
are big with mercy and will break
with blessing on your head!
~William Cowper
God Moves in a Mysterious Way

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

Little Theologians

Today was the last day for preschool chapel. . .I always read the 4 year-olds a Bible story and sing with them during chapel, so I miss it during the summertime. One thing that has
intrigued me with this year's class is the way they pray: most of them get on their knees and put their faces on the ground during the closing prayer--if that makes any sense. Their upper bodies are bent over completely. It's so cool to watch. Normally I close my eyes when I pray, but one time I looked around and noticed how they were praying and ever since then it's fascinated me. I don't know why. . .it's cute, but I also find it pretty powerful. Today we read the story of Jonah and the whale and we talked about how God is everywhere. The kids were talking to each other after the story and I thought the way their minds were sorting through stuff was interesting. Here's an example of an conversation I was a part of:

Matthew: If God can see everything, can God see space??
me: Yes, God can definitely see space. God is IN space, too--He is everywhere.
Matthew (with mouth wide open): Wowwww.
Elaina: God is HIGHER than space--He is way way way way up there! Past the clouds.
Jacob: No, God isn't high up, He is right here!

As they continued to explore where God resides, I tried to tie it all together for them. But they're theologians of their own right and it's fun to think about how their ideas will continue to be formed as they grow. Since I usually work with older kids, this is a random opportunity for me to see the world through the eyes of the younger ones, and I'm thankful for it.

In other Lauren news, this week has been way fun. . .lots of surprises that make me wonder what God is up to. Just when you think you've got it all figured out. . .

Eyes closed tight
because if the skyline looks this way
then I don't want to sleep tonight.

Saturday, May 14, 2005

Me and my good buddy Gus (not my date) at Prom in 2000 (I'm annoyed by how blurry this is, and I've tried to fix it. . .Click on it to show the original size) Posted by Hello

5 Years Later

Tonight is prom for many people--including my sister and many of my youth group kids. So I thought I'd post a picture of my own prom in memory of this night that high schoolers everywhere look forward to (and then quickly realize that it's more hype than it's worth). My prom was okay. . .it was fun, sure, but nothing like the fun I've had since. But whatever--I wouldn't want to spoil the famous evening for all you high school kids out there. :) I hope everyone has a fabulous time!

Yesterday I recorded with Scott for a CD and it was so dang fun. I realized that if I could, I would totally write more songs and try to do some of my own recording. . .but I think music is more of a hobby for me. It's really crazy, though, to stand in front of a mic and sing while others are sitting right there in front of you. No wonder people spend days and months recording albums--I could've spent forever in there working on just one song. It's easy to become a perfectionist in that type of setting. . .

Becky came over today and we went downtown to get free Ben & Jerry's ice cream--yum! Then we laid out by the pool for a while. Now I'm watching The Village, which I forgot how much I liked. But I guess I really only like the love story in it. . .

Catch ya later, friends!

The world moves for love.
It kneels before it in awe.
~The Village

Thursday, May 12, 2005

me, Scott, Trey, and Miriam Posted by Hello


Oh my GOSH. . .the Simple Life is sooooo annoying. Yes, I have it on right now and I'm not necessarily proud of that fact. Dang, those girls get on my nerves.

I'm in SA early tomorrow morning to record on Scott's CD-- which is way cool, but tiring. I'm so tired this week--emotionally and physically. Lots of crazy news this week and random unexpected stressors. I'm ready for bed and it's 9:00.

I got my hair cut and I'm kinda disappointed. It's cute, but not as cute as I'd hoped it would be. Leave it to a girl to say something like that, huh? Oh, well. It's super easy and perfect for the summer with camp and youth trips that require simple styling.

I'm thinking about going to Guatemala with the church in early November. We have a mission congregation there and it would be so awesome to go. Costly, but I think I could work it out. I think what really made me think seriously about it was the fact that Steve (our pastor) made the effort to say to me, "I really hope you can come with us." That means a lot. A group went last year and relationships were formed and continue to develop with the people in Guatemala, which I would love to be a part of. We'll see how God works this out. . .

Time for dinner and sleep! Later.

[Sleep is] the golden chain that ties health and our bodies together.
~Thomas Dekker

Monday, May 09, 2005

My Eye is a Shop

This past weekend was GREAT! TLU graduation was way fun--and I have some friends who will be in Austin over the summer (and some possibly longer than that), so I'm excited to have more people around to hang out with. Of course, this is a common theme in my life: run into old friends, exchange numbers and talk about all the fun things you'll do together, promise to hang out soon, and. . .never see them. It's not just my fault--it's a two-way street--but I'm just as guilty as anyone else of not keeping in touch. And I doubt there are people out there who are crying because I never called them, but I do believe that I will be better about it this time. :) That's the goal at least.

Taryn left this morning. . .we had a great time together. It was so nice to do many things that I don't normally do by myself--like just walking around South Congress and exploring the fun stores there. I only do that when friends visit, and I learn more about Austin each time I'm the "host." I can hardly call myself a host, though. . .but I definitely know much more about this place than I did a year ago. Taryn will most likely be heading to Africa with the Peace Corps in August, and it's so crazy that I won't see her for over two years. But who knows--I may go visit her at some point. . .

I found this great book at Book People last night called Love Poems from God--it's a collection of poems by eastern and western theologians and philosophers and it's fabulous. I almost started crying in the middle of the store while reading some of it. (I guess that's the intended effect of love poetry, huh? At least for a sappy girl like me.) The way some people can put the love of God into words just amazes me and I almost felt like I was experiencing that Love for the first time in the middle of a bookstore. I love how God reaches us at the most random moments in life.

Well, summer is on its way (in some ways, it's already begun) and I'm excited for the events I expect and curious about the surprises.

Have a good one, kids.

From my breath I extract God.
And my eye is a shop
where I offer
Him to the
~From My Breath, St. Thomas Aquinas

Saturday, May 07, 2005

Yesterday I went tubing and it was SUCH a beautiful day! Probably one of my favorite tubing trips ever.

After the wonderful afternoon, I went to Stefanie's musical with Janie. That was fun. It brought back memories of my high school musicals and all the joking we did on stage that no one in the audience ever knew about. For that reason, I like to watch the actors in the background and wonder if they're being as silly as I used to be. Probably not, though, because they're actually practicing good acting skills, which would mean staying in character, right? :) And high school kids can be so talented! This one kid last night had an amazing voice. I forget how capable they are, even though my work is all about that age level. I guess I see my kids in a different light, though, and not on a daily basis. I know that high schoolers can articulate their faith exceptionally. . .I just forget how gifted they are in school and other venues.

I'm headed to TLU's graduation later on tonight. I'm excited! Today has been a nice lazy day. I'm hoping to find some time this afternoon to work more on my candidacy application.

It hit me today how incredibly fast this spring has gone by! It's May, people. And before we know it, school will be starting up again in the fall. It's funny--a big part of my job happens in the summer, when teachers and other school workers have less to do. I have several teacher friends who are definitely counting down the days til school is out. This summer, I have tons going on. Summer camp, Vacation Bible School, Colorado backpacking trip, Eagle Pass trip. . .crazy. And I also have some fun non-work-related trips coming up, too. I'm going to Key West with Becky in August for a wedding. And I'm hoping to see my camp friends for a bit, too, at some point. I'm sure the summer will fly by, as it usually does. Seems like I always wish for it to fly by. . .maybe because the summer always feels like some sort of transition for me. In college, I both loved and hated summers: I loved the experiences I had in new places and with new people, yet hated the fact that for 3 months, I was away from really important people in my life. Through those experiences, I realized that I'm most comfortable when I'm near my family and friends. But I never would've made other friends if I hadn't worked at camp, etc. So all in all, it was good for me to get away. Even last summer was weird because my friends had just graduated from college and it was uncertain exactly how our friendships would remain in tact. But they have and I'm thankful for them.

Alright, I'm out.

Wow, this is cool:
We sometimes congratulate ourselves at the moment of waking from a troubled dream. . .it may be so at the moment of death.
~Nathaniel Hawthorne

Wednesday, May 04, 2005

Gangstas don't know how to act

Hey hey hey!

Last night was great--just fun chill-out time with Becky at her place. We watched that show, House, on FOX. It's really interesting. I'd seen it once before, and I think it's really good. Other than that, we ate pizza and chatted about life. It's taken a year and a half, but I finally feel like I have some friends in the area who I can call when I want to hang out. Becky tops the list!

I'm going to look at some houses with a guy from church today. He has a house he rents out, and he says the whole area is worth checking out in case I find something. Exciting!!

Taryn's coming in tonight! And the whole tubing idea might go out the window if the weather isn't nice. . .yuck. I bet the water's cold. Oh, well. It stinks when the weather doesn't cooperate. :( Trey and I are planning to go on Friday--maybe twice once the Seelys join us! :) I hope Court can come.

The lyrics I post today come from two of my favorite hip-hop songs right now. Becky and I share a love for 'da hood. We're both little white girls, but we definitely know our hip-hop. :) The songs below always make me want to go dancing with my girls!

So, dedicated to my dear father (and practically all my family members) who cringe when I turn up the bass. . .

Oh, round here we ridin' slow
We keep it ghetto, you should know
Gettin' crunk up in the club, we gets low
Oh, all my ladies to the floor
Handle it, ladies back it up
Gettin' crunk up in the club, we gets low

All my girls get your hair fixed and your nails done
Get your hands up and say OKAY
You got a drink, get another one, make 'em pay for it
Put it in the air and say OKAY

Tuesday, May 03, 2005

Hang Up

I really don't like making phone calls.

Well, to people I don't know, at least. It's just so weird and some people act like they would rather be talking to anyone but you. Yuck. I try to avoid making phone calls at all costs. I'm one of those "I'd-rather-e-mail-you-than-talk-to-you" people. (Again, this is only for people I don't know.)

I'm definitely a fan of answering machines. I can leave fabulous messages. :)

Monday, May 02, 2005

More Random Thoughts

I have never been good at guessing things like weight or height or numbers of people. Sometimes people will ask me, "How many people were there [at a certain event]?" and I'm like, "Why does it matter?" And one of my kids in the youth group came up to me and asked, "How much do you think I weigh?" and I was like, "Why does it matter?" ha ha I just don't have a knack for that type of stuff. I can, however, guess what time it is without a watch. My proficiency in this area is pretty consistent.

I used to be really good at memorizing phone numbers; that is, until the advent of cell phones and those handy little electronic phone books they contain. I think I got that from my mom. She and my sister can tell you practically anyone's birthday. . .or anniversary. . .or death. . .or the day you made them really mad. . .ha ha just kidding (maybe?)
It's really cool, though. Sometimes Dad and I will ask them questions just to marvel at the way their brains can recall not only a date but also what day it was. Like, we can say, "What day was your birthday on in 1985?" or "What day was April 3rd in 2002?" and they usually know it. Weird, huh?

I was real antsy during BSF tonight. I couldn't calm down; my mind was racing. That's pretty annoying. I think it's a yoga night tonight. :)

I'm excited--Taryn's coming in this week and I have two tubing trips at the end of the week!! Hope the water's warm and the sun is out!

And I'm spending some good girl time with Becky tomorrow night at her place. Awesome.

Okay, off to do the work I brought home. . .have a good one!

I'll leave you with some lyrics from one of my favorite songs:
A warning sign
I missed the good part then I realized
I started looking and the bubble burst
I started looking for excuses
Come on in
I've got to tell you what a state I'm in
I've got to tell you in my loudest tones
That I started looking for a warning sign

Sunday, May 01, 2005

What a pretty day!

On days like this, I really wish I had someone to go take a walk with. It's definitely a Greenbelt day, but it's just not as fun by myself. I'll have roommates soon, though!!

This weekend was GREAT. My dreams of sitting by the pool were dashed a bit by the cooler weather. . .however, I still sat outside on the balcony with Em and we got a little sun. Mom and Leah joined us for a while, too. And as always, it's nice to have nothing pressing to do. I watched a couple of episodes of 24 with Dad and Leah (and we took some hilarious pictures of Dad eating popcorn--there's something about Dad and a digital camera that can entertain my sister and me for hours!) 24 is a really good show. . .no wonder my entire family is addicted to it. And it's fun to hear my sister and my dad sing along to George Strait's greatest hits. :)

I love going home. The only disappointment was the fact that my allergies were bugging me like crazy! I was sneezing all the time--at one point, I came downstairs and my mom thought I was crying! ha ha

It's so hard deciding whether to take a nap or to do something else that you know you should do. I guess I'll do the latter. It'll be fun, anyway, and it will mean a lot to someone. I'm such a napper, though. . .sometimes there's nothing more inviting than my bed.

Have a good afternoon/evening! Peace.

Never let the sun set on tomorrow
Before the sun rises today.
~Nine Days